”You are being presented with a choice: evolve or remain. If you choose to remain unchanged, you will be presented with the same challenges, the same routine, the same storms, the same situations, until you learn from them, until you love yourself enough to say “no more”, until you choose change.

If you choose to evolve, you will connect with the strength within you, you will explore what lies outside the comfort zone, you will awaken to love, you will become, you will be. You have everything you need.
Choose to evolve. Choose love.’ 

-Creig Crippen 
Thank you for following my blog. I wish you blessings, love and light for 2017. May you continue to grow, evolve and recognize the magnificence that it your own light. 

Lyme Disease is once again kicking my ass, so my focus for the moment is on healing and getting myself back to a healthier state. Protocols, prayer (meditation) and patience are all on the cards. Alliteration aside, it’s actually very daunting but I’ve been here before. May this year be my healthiest. And yours too. Namaste. 🌷🙏🏼😌💓✌🏼

Beyond Illness

BEYOND ILLNESS: NOTE TO A RECOVERING FRIEND

7ebe48e69c655cd30be46e7275723246‘Your illness is not against you, friend. The aches and pains you feel in your body are not punishments. You did nothing wrong. This day is not an indication of weakness or failure. You are receiving yet another invitation – to slow down. To rest. To take each moment as it comes. To let go of all that which is unnecessary, including perhaps your search for answers. To reassess your priorities, to remember that which is primary. To turn towards the present moment, this moment, the only moment there is, your true home, your resting place, your place of connection.

To stay rooted here, in the present scene of the movie of your life. To stop rewinding the movie into past scenes of regret, missed chances and wrong turns. And to stop fast-forwarding the movie into future scenes of pain or sorrow, further missed chances, unattainable goals or even death. To come right back here. To befriend uncertainty, rediscover the thrill of not knowing. To say YES to this moment, even if you feel like a NO. To include the NO, too.

To use your aches and pains, not be used by them; to meet the sensations in your body with gentleness and curiosity, not to resist or try to make them go away. To sink deeply into the moment; not to try to escape it – and to allow yourself to want to escape it too. To trust the intelligence of this incredible body, its extraordinary capacity to heal and deal with anything that comes its way. To admit that you are exhausted from the struggle of pretending to be a ‘me’, tired from trying to fit in, trying to say the right thing, trying to be a success in the world, trying to hold it all together, even trying not to try.

To find a place of humility, and even gratitude, amidst the rubble of the old dreams. To let go of your idea of ‘How Life Was Going To Be’, and to embrace ‘How Life Actually Is’. To rediscover a sense of sacredness, where you are, how you are.

This just may be your invitation to awakening. Drop the word ‘sickness’; see this as a path of deeper healing, beyond the physical. A calling to Truth. Always a beginning, never a defeat.’

– Jeff Foster

Lyme Treatment: My Favourite Supplements

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As someone who has fought and won many battles against Lyme disease, I wanted to share some of the supplements that really made a difference for me. I haven’t listed the more common supplements such as Vitamin B12, Vitamin C, and Vitamin D as most Lymies already know how critical these ones are. The supplements listed below were used in conjunction with a Lyme M.D, conventional medicine and lots of meditation, prayer and rest.

I’m not a medical professional, my advice is based on personal experience, research, doctors’ advice and trial and error. Everybody’s body is different and has different needs, especially when it comes to Lyme and your co-infections.

My doctor always suggested that I only introduce one new supplement at a time so I could track its progress and correctly identify the side effects. This was particularly important for my tummy as I have Leaky Gut and other food allergies thanks to three years of prolonged ABX use. Please check with your doctor before taking any of these are they may have contra-indications with certain medications.

 Cistus Incanus- Can be consumed as a tea or in pill form. Dr Klinghardt recommends this as a more natural way to breakup biofilm in the stomach. It is made from a flowering plant said to contain antibacterial and antifungal properties.

Glutathione- I’m only familiar with the nebulized or in pill form, although I believe you can also receive it in IV and injection form. It is an excellent antioxidant and a super supplement for detoxification.  Post Lyme, I still use this in pill form if I know I will be having a quiet drink or two. This supplement is so beneficial, whether you’re healthy or not. And let’s be honest, most people could do with a little detoxification.

Pau D`Arco-  It is a natural antifungal supplement made from a the wood and bark of a South American tree. It has a range of uses but it’s excellent for fighting yeast infections such as candida. This can be taken as a supplement or drank as a tea. I was encouraged to drink one cup per day to harness its antifungal properties.

Co-Enzyme Q10 & Flaxseed Oil: These two should be taken together. My doctor recommended Coenzyme Q10 (CoQ10) for stamina and to help with fatigue. CoQ10 is a vitamin-like compound that helps in the production of the body’s energy. It is also a powerful antioxidant and helps fight free radicals. CoQ10 is fat soluble, which means it requires fat to be absorbed, so it should be taken with flaxseed oil which aids absorption.

Curcumin/Turmeric: It’s a naturally occurring compound derived from the Indian spice turmeric. It’s known for its antioxidant and anti-inflammatory qualities. We used it to help with my inflamed tummy due to Leaky Gut and pumping copious amounts of ABX in there. I used it in pill form, two pills, two times a day. I also used it in many of my soups and stews in its herbal form. A wonderfully natural supplement that can be used long term and is usually well tolerated.

Grapeseed Extract: While off ABX and on herbal treatments, I used this to treat the cystic form of Lyme. Containing bioactive flavonoids such as Resveratrol, I was told that it has antifungal properties. Pulsing is the best way to go. I found two weeks on, two weeks off to be most effective. I didn’t experience any strong herxing on this supplement which is an additional bonus. But of course, everyone responds differently to medicine.

Olive Leaf Extract: As the name suggests, this supplement is extracted from the leaf of the olive plant. It is used to stimulate and moderate the immune system. It is known for its antioxidant powers and has anti-microbial properties too. If you can’t stand the taste of the liquid form (like me!), take it capsulated.

Toxin Absorb Max- Another top supplement for detoxification and the removal of heavy metals. Consisting of clay and charcoal, you take four tablets before bed with a large glass of water. It provides a very natural but effective way to detox. Use with caution if you are having tummy problems.

Astra 8 Immune Tonic Although it contains eight key herbs used in traditional Chinese medicine, the largest herbal component is Astragulus which is said to support your immune system. It is also an antiviral. It also has Siberian Ginseng which is said to be beneficial for adrenal support. Definitely check with your doctor before starting this as it is not suitable for all autoimmune diseases. I responded very well to it and found it helped with energy and fatigue. Again, I pulsed this supplement two weeks on, two weeks off.

Colostrum: Probably my favourite supplement, despite hating the flavour with a passion. I used the powder version, mixed with orange juice to mask the milky flavour. You can actually buy a pill version too which would have been a smarter choice for me. Interestingly, this was recommended to me despite being dairy intolerant as it is usually very well tolerated. Bovine colostrum is a type of milk secreted by cows within the first few days of giving birth. It is rich in antibacterial compounds and proteins known to help stimulate the immune system. It’s also recommended for gastrointestinal issues such as chronic diarrhoea and stomach inflammation caused by strong or long term ABX usage.

 When researching any supplements make sure you take the time to check the quality of the supplements. Don’t waste your money on cheap versions that contain inferior or lower level ingredients. Buy the best supplement you can within your price range.

I’d love to know what your favourite Lyme supplements are. Please leave a comment below.

How Lyme Disease Was The Cure For My Dis-Ease

d5da51662429fd3128b923d4d7edf3b4These days I’m almost thankful that a tiny little tick bit me and gave me Lyme disease. This disease was the catalyst for some major changes in my life.  It took a formidable illness like Lyme to force me to quit my much loved career, slow down, and start to make the changes I needed to become a more balanced, mindful and inwardly peaceful individual.

After being quite unwell for many years, I was diagnosed with chronic late-stage Lyme disease, Lyme borreliosis plus three other little co-infections. I had no idea then what a difficult road recovery would be and I’m actually grateful for that. Had I have known the huge war Lyme would rage on my body and mind I probably wouldn’t have been so positive about overcoming it nor would I have persevered as I long as I did.

Fast forward a few years later, I’m a newer, much healthier version and so grateful for everything that transpired during my Lyme journey and treatment.  Lyme has changed my life in ways I never saw coming. It helped me learn some serious lessons about myself, about others and how I live my life.

Lessons Lyme Taught Me:

1) The Importance of living life in the moment- My life came to a standstill of sorts during my treatment and this was a blessing in disguise. At my sickest, there was no planning for the weekend, next month, or even next year. Life was about getting through each day. Some days getting out of bed and showering was an achievement in itself.  While at the time I was beyond frustrated with the pace of healing and how limited my life had become, being very sick taught me a valuable lesson; how to live in the now, the only place where peace can exist.

It never previously occurred to me that I could not live a peaceful existence unless I was rooted in the present moment. I now understand that living in the past, reliving past hurts and pain over and over again, simply isn’t helpful or conducive for a balanced, peaceful life.  The past has happened, it’s done, and no amount of rehashing hurts or regrets will change it. Make peace with your pain; acknowledge what has happened, accept it, forgive those who have wronged you, or even forgive yourself, and bring yourself back to the present moment. The only moment that is real.

This same awareness can be applied to worrying excessively about the future; this is just as counterproductive as living in the past.  Only now exists, and now is the only place where peace can be found. Be present in your life, no mater shows up.  Look at the works of Rumi, Buddha, Ram Dass, Osho, Sogyal Rinpoche, Deepak Chopra and Eckhart Tolle; they all seem to share a similar message.

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2) I learned how to surrender– As a former control freak perfectionist, Lyme was the perfect lesson in learning how to let go of the reins and surrender completely. For three years Lyme was in charge and I struggled profusely against it. I refused to surrender to it for the longest time. I fought very hard to keep a regular life and even harder not to give up on so many things I deemed important. Things that were often at odds with healing. Only once I finally let go and stopped fighting the process and the disease did I find peace. This was huge for me. I was having a crash course in mindfulness.

Once I surrendered, things really started to change. I accepted that I was sick and that I possibly would always be sick and I had to make peace with that. I also accepted that I’d probably never teach again and possibly would never work full time again. Acceptance was the only thing left to do. If you can’t leave a situation or change it, then you have to accept it. As Tolle says ‘All else is madness.’

Learning to surrender and show equanimity has had a follow on effect in other areas of life. I understand now that most of the challenging events and people in my life are out of my control and I’m learning to be OK with that. The only thing I can control is how I respond to situations and others. Letting go and learning to be equanimous during both  challenges and successes is an on-going goal for me.

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3) Life cannot be peaceful without balance- If it weren’t for Lyme I’d most certainly still be teaching and still burning the candle at both ends, living a life without a trace of balance. I feel that while I was a capable teacher, I was beyond hopeless at being a balanced employee. I loved working hard, being super organized and having everything in ‘perfect’ order. Now I shudder at the thought. Ego sure loved getting praise and accolades for my hard work too.

Post Lyme, I no longer want a job that requires me to work six days a week, work after hours and even during my holidays. I can see now that while being a workaholic perfectionist made me a pretty good employee, it failed to help make be a healthy, balanced individual. Also waking up so fatigued every day didn’t allow me to show the level of patience, kindness and compassion that my students and coworkers deserved.

I learned that if you find balance, you’ll also find peace. Whether it’s with work, relationships, friendships, family, food, or exercise. Wherever there is imbalance, work to rectify it. The more balanced I am, the more productive, happy and energetic I feel. The happier I am, the kinder and more compassionate I can be with others.

 4) Anger is a very harmful emotion- Anger is a very powerful emotion and can negatively affect not just your mind, but also your body. Because anger produces a chemical response in your body, if left unchecked or prolonged, the flood of these stress chemicals can eventually cause harm to many different systems of the body. I learned that anger and health simply cannot coexist and that carrying anger with you is incredibly self- destructive.

In reality, pain is universal, we ALL experience it, and it’s a part of being human. Unchecked, this pain and suffering can lead to anger. It seems perfectly obvious now, that by not forgiving those that caused me pain and/or suffering, I was actually the perpetrator of ongoing pain to myself. Forgiveness is the key to liberating your mind from anger and is the only way to gain peace.  Even if you’re feeling particularly bitter and don’t yet believe that the person deserves forgiveness, think of YOU. Don’t you deserve to be free of the pain?

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 5) Disease is Dis-ease: During my Lyme treatment I’d cry to my husband “Why can’t I have a different disease, any disease other than Lyme?” I now understand that having a disease, any disease, means that your body and/or mind is in a state of dis-ease. It makes no difference what the type of illness you have; you are ‘without ease’. No disease is a walk in the park. But that’s the nature of illness, it forces you one way or another to make changes and evolve as a person. I’ve learned from Lyme that health is not simply the absence of disease. Rather, health should be viewed as the state in which each parts of the body are working together effortlessly and at ease. I’m not there yet, but I’m closer than I’ve ever been.

 6) The Importance of Finding the Right Doctor For you- Respect your body enough to walk away from medical care that doesn’t seem right or isn’t on par with your values and beliefs.  I had a renowned and very experienced Californian Lyme doctor when I lived in the States. Being so revered and experienced, I did whatever he said. If he instructed me to stay on a particular antibiotic, which was at toxic levels that had me up day and night with vomiting and diarrhea, then I would. No matter how sick I got, I did what he said. The unfortunate lingering result of this has been many food intolerances and a nasty Leaky Gut.

Fast-forward a few years, I’m pretty picky about who I listen to when it comes to medicine. It’s my body, I’m the one ingesting the treatment and if I think there’s a healthier, more holistic way then I’ll seek a second opinion. Luckily, I found a wonderful doctor here in Australia who was my saving grace. Since meeting her my health has improved ten-fold.  Her values are in line with mine; a healthy mind, body and spirit are needed for good health. We used regular and complementary medicine to achieve this, and I say WE because we both came up with options for treatment and she gave me the choice on which option to take. After all, it is my body, so it is my choice.

My advice for Lyme sufferers, or anyone suffering an illness, is not to focus purely on physically healing. Rather, see your illness as an opportunity to heal any areas of your life, be it emotional or spiritual, where you have an imbalance or discord.

Thankfully, it looks like the worst of my Lyme storm has passed and I feel like there’s so much to look forward to. I’ve been off medication for over a year now with no relapses. I am still living with Lyme, however my last blood work showed that I no longer have co-infections.  Yay! I am no longer plagued with chronic fatigue and I am happy to say that my ‘good’ days far out weigh the tiresome ones. Now my focus is on managing my energy levels, continued healing, meditation and mindfulness.

Namaste. May you be well.  May you be happy. May you be free from suffering.

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