‘After feeling driven my whole life
something very near the center has
unwound and I can no longer hurry
through airports or return all my calls.
And sometimes people I barely know
swim up like old worn fish to show me
the map of their gills, and the one long
gash of something they once swallowed,
and how it has cut each breath since.
And I am honored to warm them
like a blanket. But when alone, I
find it hard not to watch
what I swallow.
When alone, these things
I’ve wanted to know since birth
feel so unanswerable, I must
have been torn from them.
I’m sure a hawk doesn’t know it’s a
hawk. I’m sure a spirit doesn’t know
it’s being spiritual. Or a screen door
slapping, like a tired life, in the night,
if it’s opening or closing.
Though we give up the murky fears,
we still can’t know our worth, any-
more than a faceless treasure
can fathom why
it was boxed
When you’re damaged, you learn to take what’s given to you and be grateful for it. You learn that love is not a game, and cherish it. You learn how to appreciate the smallest things people do for you.
Because when people have gone through wars that have left them broken, they understand how fragile life is. They understand how they must make the most of it. And most of all, they understand how important it is to always be kind.
‘If you have experienced hunger, you know that having food is a miracle. If you have suffered from the cold, you know the preciousness of warmth. When you have suffered, you know how to appreciate the elements of paradise that are present. If you dwell only in your suffering, you will miss paradise. Don’t ignore your suffering, but don’t forget to enjoy the wonders of life, for your sake and for the benefit of many beings.’
– Thich Nhat Hanh, in “The Heart of the Buddha’s Teaching”
“Oh, the comfort, the inexpressible comfort of feeling safe with a person; having neither to weigh thoughts nor measure words, but to pour them all out, just as they are, chaff and grain together, knowing that a faithful hand will take and sift them, keep what is worth keeping, and then, with a breath of kindness, blow the rest away.”
-Dinah Maria Mulock Craik, A Life for a Life
‘First there is the rupture. Old pain resurfaces, erupting from the depths of the unconscious.
The status quo is shattered. You feel disoriented, groundless, not knowing where to turn. An old world has crumbled, a new world has not yet formed.
You encounter the strange space of Now, pure presence, raw, unprotected by old dreams, nothing to cling to. Even your outdated concepts of God crumble.
And then you remember to breathe, and feel your feet on the ground, and observe the spinning mind rather than losing yourself in it.
The world is out of control but you are not.
You feel what you feel. Afraid. Angry. Numb. Sad. Lonely. Unsafe. Whatever. You commit to feeling it fully today, to not dissociating this time. A feeling is just a feeling, not a fact, and presence can hold it.
You wail, you weep, you scream, but you are repairing. You have broken to heal, ruptured to mend. Old energies have emerged only to be blessed with love, acceptance, tenderness.
You can’t go back to the way things were. You can’t un-see what you have seen. But you can be present, today. And take each step consciously now, not automatically, habitually, but mindfully, with care. Finding gratitude for each extra moment you are alive.
And staying close to yourself now, as you walk this unknown path with courage, and a new conviction.’
– Jeff Foster
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You really don’t realize how brilliantly beautiful you are, breaking old beliefs and grasping your bliss.
I realize it’s ridiculously hard and messy but you can do ridiculously hard and messy things.
Are you shaken?
Good. Keep going.
You were shaken before and here you are.
Still standing. Doing this.
Shining and expanding and gloriously undefined.
-Victoria Erickson, from the soon to be published ‘Rhythms and Roads’
“Life has showered blessings all around us, the trick is to recognize them, enjoy them and feel the gratitude in our hearts for them. One can truly become grateful through the act of mindfulness and bringing conscious awareness to that which our life is enriched with each and every day. There is also a value in being grateful for what has been and given, in order to gain the learning and the benefit of it today. There is also a great benefit in having gratitude for what is coming in to your life, creating powerful manifesting energy that pulls in that which you feel joyful and hopeful about. Therefore, daily practice of gratitude, is one key to true peace, harmony and happiness.”
-From @law_of_positivism on instagram